How Serving Became my Master

It is very easy to admit that the last 2 years or so have been some of the most stressful and difficult times I have ever had. I won't go into the details of it all, but it has been trying for sure. Now growing up my family was always trying to be the epitome of being a servant in the church. Through good times and bad we continually served where it felt like church was more of a home than home. Now probably around 2 years ago I remember a speaker at my school began talking about how he put serving God over his relationship with Him. At the time it didn't make sense to me. How could serving God be put ahead of a relationship with Him? I mean you are serving for God right? The question that I had to ask was "Why I am serving?" I would have liked to think that it was to worship God and glorify Him. However the first thought that popped into my head was not of worship, but rather it was along the lines of "it's just what I do". Serving was becoming my master, not God. Works are to be the fruit of one's relationship with God not a replacement. That is where I stood, which was why I decided to step down from my church and instead look for a new church family to grow along side with. I knew I could never just step back and not serve being with the same church family for 17+ years. I had to make a change. This past sunday was my last sunday at Lifesong. For the first time I looked out and thought to myself, "I won't be back here next week". Now with this past sunday being my last along with my family's we decided to record it. Some memories you just can't let yourself forget. I played in the band with my older brother for probably 10-12 years and my younger joined us the last 4-5 years. We all knew that may have been the last sunday we all play together. My older brother Fred asked me to mix the audio and put almost a highlight reel together. This also turned out to be a great opportunity to show Fred's ability to lead worship in church as he looks for new job opportunities. I know if your church is looking for a worship leader, I wouldn't want anyone else other than Fred. I have never seen anyone be beaten down so many times sacrificing for his family, and yet still is always looking for what God wants next of him. We both took the same "Intro to Worship" class at Liberty University from Dr. Vernon Whaley where he stated that "worship is a lifestyle". Fred represents that in so many ways. I know I can't thank him enough for what he has done in teaching me and challenging me, but in the same token I can't apologize enough for making it tougher on him. Sometimes it is a little tough defining a relationship as a worship leader when you spent so many years as just a brother. But he did it, and he did so much more. If you want a little taste check out the video below of our last sunday at Lifesong.